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Life Update: October 2020

So hello! I hope you’re all well and 2020 hasn’t completely knocked ye down! It’s been a lil while since I shared what’s been going on in Lynsey Land but we’ve had some updates recently, well one big one.

I’ve eventually found and just completed on my VERY OWN HOUSE. Which just has me proud as punch if I’m really honest. This time last year I was at the lowest point of my life. I was drowning in grief missing my dad and really incapable of dealing with it, I was unexpectedly living back home with my mum and my life was generally upside down. I felt like I’d completely lost my way and had no idea how to get a handle back on it or process how I felt. I’ve subsequently been open about how low I felt back then and honestly if a few things hadn’t happened, I don’t think I’d have survived it and that’s scary. I was making stupid decisions and choices and completely forgetting my self worth. That was a complete deep, dark hole.

But a year down the line is a real peak. And I couldn’t be prouder of myself (if I say so). I completely started my life again from scratch and I did it entirely on my own. No big hand outs, no relying on anybody else to share the burden. Just my own hard fucking work and discipline. And y’know what, I’ll flex the fuck out of it and I’ll make zero apologies cause it felt like an insurmountable task a year ago.

Don’t get me wrong, It hasn’t been easy. There’s been many bumps and disappointments along the way. There have been several changes of plans. There have been tears (mostly mine). Sleepless nights. The lot. But I can tell you it’s been worth every single negative part for this feeling. Walking into my house on Friday and looking around felt really bloody good. And it reminded me that you have to take the rough with smooth in life and it always gets better.

So now I’m in a happy little bubble of making the house a home. There’s parcels arriving every hour at the minute and I’m flat out designing every inch of my wee home the way I want it. And I can’t wait to share the progress with you all! Most notably my bar area that’s gonna be the best spot in town once we’re all allowed to socialise again….

Thanks for reading!

Lynsey xox

Chapter 33….

Many of you might think that the title of this blog post gives away my age. I won’t comment. Instead I’ll continue to tell people I’m 25 and leave it at that.

Birthdays are funny old things. I tend to get a bit more reflective around my birthday as I get older and certainly more than I would at say New Year. Anybody else do this, or are you normal?

I’ve said it before but I’ve been on a very steep learning curve, particularly for the past year or two, and I’ve really tried to take lessons on board or grow on the back of any negatives that have reared their ugly heads. Sometimes I feel like it doesn’t look like I’ve got anywhere until I take a step back and look retrospectively and realise I’ve done alright.

So what nuggets of wisdom have I learnt over the past little while?

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The Lockdown Diaries: Part 3 – Looking After Yourself

I’ve got to the point where I think lockdown feels relatively normal now! After the recent ease in restrictions there’s been more discussion for us about how returning to the office might look and as much as I’m looking forward to it, it kind of fills me with a touch of anxiety as I think navigating the outside world in the new “normal” is going to be difficult for a number of reasons.

Someone asked me recently how I’ve managed to remain positive throughout this crazy period. And truth be told, I haven’t always been able to. I, like everybody else, have difficult days where I feel like shit. But my inherent Lynsey trait is I won’t allow myself to “burden” people as I see it. Even though I never feel burdened listening to others! As is my life, there’s always a lot going on. Most of which I only share with those I’m extremely close to. That’s my way and it works for me for right now. Somebody called me an iceberg recently too and it’s perfectly accurate. A lot happens under the surface. But provided you aren’t bottling it up, take circumstances at your own pace and comfort level.

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